This animal I have become (Open)

Anger was a natural state of mind for Adair, something that he had been living with for a long time, and that is why he thought that he had ended up in Slytherin, and why he had a hard time making friends like he had wanted to. His mother said that he was fine, and that other people did not understand that being a Black meant that you were someone else, you were better then everyone else and he had to get used to thing like that. Adair did not want to be better then everyone else, he just wanted to have people that were her friends, and did not fear him for the fact that he was a Black. This is what was hurting him, the things that he had to go through and had to feel thanks to the fact this is what other people wanted from him. His father was a bully, and would yell at him if he did anything wrong, or brought any shame or anything bad to the name of Black. Adair had been bullied into the way that he was, and he lashed out at the people around him because of this and inside he was screaming. 

Adair woke that morning sitting up and screamed as he sighed and panted hard as the nightmare made him feel as though he was running in a circle with his father yelling at him to be better then what he was. He shivered as he got up from the bed and walked into the bathroom and got cleaned up before he came back into the room and got dressed. He did not want to be asked questions about what he had screamed about, so he knew that he had to get out of there before the others could ask. He made his way through the common room, others were up but he did not talk to them as he thought that would be a bad idea at the moment, he did not want to get into the fact that he was so tormented by the things that he went through that he did not want the others to know about the world of pain that he was n. 

He got up to the great hall and walked in, it was quiet and empty and he walked over to the table that he always sat at, he sat down and started to make some sandwiches out of the things that were there. He then bundled it all up and got up grabbing a jug of juice as he turned and left the hall as he knew that he did not want to be around others even when he was eating, as he got outside the cooler air made him feel a little bit better thanks to this. He was sure that he could be alright out here, so he found a place that he could sit and take a chance to breath, that was what he needed to do, he needed to breath. He pulled out one sandwich as he sat there and ate slowly, as he watched the world wake up around him.